Enlightenment..
Sunday, May 29, 2011
I've decided.. that it'd be great if we can still be friends. Like how Robben remained friends with Ted and Barney in HIMYM.. that will probably feel alot better. No awkwardness. If this is also what he agrees, that will be the best for us.. and a load off my chest.
I'm pretty excited about my upcoming travel plans. Hehe. Cost me a bomb but i hope it is worthwhile. I need to start saving up to make up for the additional cost lo.. :X
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--Merci tout le monde--
Sunday, May 29, 2011
i wonder...
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
... if you would remember my birthday...
... if you actually thought of me...
... if you are doing ok...
... if you actually regretted...
... if we'd still be friends in future...
... if i'm being naive to still think about all this right now...
Labels: Thoughts
--Merci tout le monde--
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Now i feel pissed off..
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
After all these while of attempting to be understanding.. i realise i was being treated like a fool. Just being there to pull through 5 tough school years and after exams, then 'thank you and bye bye'.
Maybe there really was someone else... and after comparison.. I'm the most boring and unimportant person around. If that was the case, why tell me only now.
All i have left now is disappointment. Maybe i was wrong about you.. after all that trust.. maybe it really wasn't worth it.
当你已经改变 不论什么都是错误
一开始的特别 现在只是我们的距离
心已经不在了 什么也都不重要了
一切都只是过眼云烟 你还会留恋吗
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--Merci tout le monde--
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
And this is the end... or a new beginning..
Sunday, May 01, 2011
After 69 months and 5 days.. we have made the decision to part ways. I guess it's the best for both of us to end it now rather than later, since we really can't see our future together. The very things that brought us together have probably also caused this separation. But of course.. different religions, hobbies, lifestyle, background, career outlook have made us go on different paths that may never converge again. I'm definitely sad, but i think this will go away soon.. hopefully. While i have been living a pretty independent life in the recent year, i think adjustment will still take time. Till now, i haven't spoken to my family about this. I've no idea on how to approach the subject, especially in shantou when relatives asked and they happily told them i'm attached. Oh wells. now i think it was a very bad idea that i invited him to the wedding. >.< Sis thinks there must be someone else. I'm not sure. Maybe. Maybe not. I shall retain this trust.
While it was a mutual decision to part, maybe it was a little too late. We should probably have done it 3 years ago.. before going through this whole period only to realize that there is no way out. Sometimes when i look back, i wonder if it was because of the different stage of lives that we are in right now that magnified the whole difference thing. Or maybe we just didn't put in the necessary effort to maintain this already-hard-to-maintain relationship. I previously thought we would be an exception, a couple that could overcome all odds. But now i'm convinced that it's no longer possible. We were both tired.. whatever that may happen in future is unknown, i hope we'd both have a happy life in our own ways.
Now it's time for me to lead my single and fabulous life again. Hopefully i can find the real happiness eventually.. just like my dear aunt who's so happily married now. I'm really really happy for her. It's the only thing now that give me the hope that we will be able to find happiness, no matter how old.. even if it takes another 20 years..
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--Merci tout le monde--
Sunday, May 01, 2011
